The alarm ringer says, “It’s time to wake up,”
All I want to do is stay curled up in bed,
My brain says, “What’s the point of waking up?”
Still I wake up and get sadden at the thought of waking up alone in the bed,
It’s a reminder that there’s no love next to me when I wake up.
I get dressed for another day,
I didn’t even feel like getting dressed,
I don’t know why I bothered looking “nice” today,
I have no love to compliment me when I get dressed,
Still I got dressed for another day.
It was another day of being sick,
I spent my night crying because I was sick,
It’s also another day of crying because I feel sick,
I’m so tired of being sick,
It makes me sad that there isn’t a love by my side when I’m sick.
Along with sickness there are bills to pay,
It makes me wish I had a love to share the burden of bills,
Why is there so much to pay?
Why do we have to pay a lot of bills?
My health is getting worse because of all that I have to pay.
Still I exit my home,
A face another day in the crowd,
I put a smile as soon as I left my home,
I’m another smiling in the crowd,
I wonder who else pretends they are okay as soon as they leave their home.
On occasions someone else smiles back,
I become thankful that I chose to step outside my home,
It feels like medicine when someone smiles back,
It makes me wish that I didn’t have to go back to a lonely home,
Yet I always go back.
I don’t run from my problem,
Instead I make a wish for a different life,
Instead I try to figure out how to solve my problem,
Perhaps one day I’ll have a love in my life,
Right now I’ll do my best to solve my own problem.