I slept with several men,
I’m not proud,
I don’t remember the faces of all men,
It doesn’t make me proud,
I was addicted to men.
I was afraid of men,
I zoned some out while having sexual intercourse,
I hated men,
I didn’t always like the sexual intercourse,
I felt I couldn’t live without men.
I liked the attention that some men gave,
I disliked when men wanted me for the wrong reasons,
I accepted what some gave,
I liked them for the wrong reasons,
I shouldn’t have settled for what they gave.
I stayed because I liked their body,
I didn’t always like their personalities,
It was wrong to only like them for their body,
I tried to like their personalities,
In the end I was only able to like their body.
I do apologize for only liking their body,
Still they were all bad boys who only wanted the sex,
So I doubt they care that I only wanted their body,
After all they all left when they were done getting sex,
However, years later I now want a man for his personality and not just his body.