A step forward,
Believing a little and then stopping myself from moving forward,
Doubt takes over and so does the hesitation,
Been disappointed in life that it stops me from believing completely as I move forward.
It’s difficult to believe in the good completely,
I keep thinking that one day I’ll hear the bad news,
Part of me still feels it can all shatter completely,
It’s hard to believe that I’ll always have good news,
I can’t believe in anything or anyone completely.
Still doubting doesn’t prepare me for the bad news,
Doubting won’t ever make the bad news okay,
It will still break me if I hear bad news,
Bad news doesn’t make me feel okay,
So why do I keep thinking about the bad news?
Why can’t I enjoy the good while it lasts?
I guess I’m just silly,
I prefer to focus on the what if instead of the good while it lasts,
I guess I let my past disappointment turn me silly,
Yes, I’m just a silly person who doesn’t always realize that it’s more important to cherish the good while it lasts.