I am afraid of darkness,
Yet darkness is what I long for when depressed,
I just want to see the darkness,
I don’t want to see anything else when I’m depressed,
I’m not even afraid of what can take me in the darkness.
I become too depressed to care what’s in the darkness,
All I can hear are the negative thoughts,
The negative thoughts that make me appear braver in the darkness,
It’s the I don’t care thoughts,
Yet when I’m happy I start to care about the darkness.
When I’m not depressed I don’t want to be taken by what’s in the darkness,
When I’m happy I long to feel the sunshine,
When I’m happy I want to see light and not the darkness,
When I’m happy I’m thankful for the light and sunshine,
This is why it’s a fascinating darkness.