I am afraid of darkness,

Yet darkness is what I long for when depressed,

I just want to see the darkness,

I don’t want to see anything else when I’m depressed,

I’m not even afraid of what can take me in the darkness.


I become too depressed to care what’s in the darkness,

All I can hear are the negative thoughts,

The negative thoughts that make me appear braver in the darkness,

It’s the I don’t care thoughts,

Yet when I’m happy I start to care about the darkness.


When I’m not depressed I don’t want to be taken by what’s in the darkness,

When I’m happy I long to feel the sunshine,

When I’m happy I want to see light and not the darkness,

When I’m happy  I’m thankful for the light and sunshine,

This is why it’s a fascinating darkness.