Disguising The Attack (Poem)

I’m smiling,

I’m feeling the hate and jealousy,

Only those close know what I’m hiding,

The perfect life that I’m showing is what’s causing the jealousy,

All because I’ve gotten good at disguising.


I doubt they’ll be able to endure a panic attack,

To panic because of their fear,

No one wants a panic attack,

No one wants to face their fear,

So the question is “Are you so jealous that you want to live with a panic attack?”


Still, some know of my panic/anxiety and judge me,

All because their own fear hasn’t caused a panic attack,

That’s why they judge me,

Perhaps they need to experience a panic attack,

Perhaps only then will they stop judging me.


Yet I wouldn’t want anyone to experience a panic attack,

I wouldn’t want that because I know how it feels,

I know how difficult it can be to get through a panic attack,

Thus, I choose to become stronger with their judgment instead of saying I wish you knew how it feels,

After all, I’ve gotten to see who truly cares about me because of the panic attack.

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