I’m feeling the hate and jealousy,
Only those close know what I’m hiding,
The perfect life that I’m showing is what’s causing the jealousy,
All because I’ve gotten good at disguising.
I doubt they’ll be able to endure a panic attack,
To panic because of their fear,
No one wants a panic attack,
No one wants to face their fear,
So the question is “Are you so jealous that you want to live with a panic attack?”
Still, some know of my panic/anxiety and judge me,
All because their own fear hasn’t caused a panic attack,
That’s why they judge me,
Perhaps they need to experience a panic attack,
Perhaps only then will they stop judging me.
Yet I wouldn’t want anyone to experience a panic attack,
I wouldn’t want that because I know how it feels,
I know how difficult it can be to get through a panic attack,
Thus, I choose to become stronger with their judgment instead of saying I wish you knew how it feels,
After all, I’ve gotten to see who truly cares about me because of the panic attack.